Conscious Existence

Time is tricky, swirling and spinning through my consciousness.

As time passes, we forge new relationships and wear them as our shields, proudly displaying the new swirls and patterns that time helps us to place on these newfound friendships. Each bonding moment becomes a new sparkle in the design, each laugh another detail in the decor. Their beauty is short lived and, like anything built for design, these shields don't fit perfectly. As a result they create annoying blisters that causes us to drop them in the corner, abandoned without attachment.

Loneliness is the time between shields, longing to place the old battered and tarnished shields back on, cursing the distance that holds you back. Each crack on the old shields become more valuable with time, each memory cherished in fear it will become lost.

The beauty of the unattainable is almost unbearable, for it grows in splendor as the distance lengthens.

Life is amazing, and some days the beauty of it all wells up inside of me so powerfully I feel as though I may explode: every fiber of my being pulls away from me, each chiming in a beautiful symphony that screams of life, and it is then that the sunlight overwhelms my vision and fills me with hope. I stand alone, arms outstretched in awe of everything that is encompassed in this one moment in time.

New shields cannot hold me back, for they compliment my present and then fall aside, building confidence in the future and drawing me closer to my past.

Love is simply passion, evident in every beautiful thing.